Gauss’ WebLog

I feel weak…

I feel heavy…

I feel cold…

I feel my head tumble…

I feel sick…

It has been a frustating month (again)… all those boards meetings, expos, office works sucking all my strength to the bones! Sleepless nights, pressing my brain and heart just to make sure all in the right track.

It’s very hard to make the right combination to share my time, thought, power and love three-way. Family, Work & the one and only my beloved CBR CLUB! It’s rubbish when people told me it’s "time-managable" !! Ultra BS!

And it comes harder when all things grow bigger. More kids, more jobs (hoping for more money of course) and more members in the club. So I need to dropped aka. sacrifice one of them.

But I don’t feel sad when I did…

I did for the best of all…

My pride still intact… I want to watch my kids play… and I want to get more things that world could offer.

No rejoice… but it feels light as a feather now…

Jeezzz… I just found out that some people were born as morons. Copycat all your works and what you do. For what? Fame? Uh oh… pity you.

Your friends might be not in the same pants with you. But you can see their attitudes… fit in or fit out. But it’s just soooo stupid to see them make and do whatever you were making.

Envy…??? I can call it that way…

It’s been a hard working, sleepless, back-to-back month!! I’m not complaining anything but soar butts, day-dreamy, sleepy eyes and of course i need those firm hands to give me some messages

It’s all about the money…(dum..dum..let’s sing it). Ass-kissing those credit card calls!! Warning me about late charges etc. Jeezz how many plastic card do i have? Gotta get rid some of ‘em soon

Weather : darn.. it used to be summer! Was El-Nino and now it’s La-Nina ? Suck

Kids : Leticia’s front tooth need a pull and Matthew has become a little sobby guy.

Wife : she needs some shopping spree…

Office : jobs & order are keep coming..!

Neighbour : just found out that one of them is a joke! What a senseless prick!

Jeezz…. these few weeks were so awful. THe weather is suck!! From hot to rain… hot again… rain again!! Makes everyone sick! Including me!

I thought it’s just the weather makes my condition lower. Then I found out that i had thypoid after I took the blood test. And Leticia vomits all the time one night. Probably about 15x !! That’s after Matthew got the same sickness a week before.

So there were me and Leticia, hospitalized in Graha Medica Hosp (now Siloam Hosp) for 4 days (Feb 24 til 28, 2007). Luckily she got a 1st class room and I dumped in a 2nd class room sharing with 2 other guys. THe 1st day was like in hell when there’s a chinese old guy with mandarin accent talking with his visitors like they’re in VIP room!! Bastards!! Make me piss allday. But lucky bugger!! He’s out in the next day, replaced by this quiet old betawi guy.

The other ‘neigbour’ is allright. He is a betawi young guy and he got accident on a motorcycle. His left foot was crushed by a big truck (running over) and he’s loosing it. Poor guy… but he got lots of tattooes in his arms and somewhere else in his body (i didn’t check, sorry!).

Anyway, now i’m staying home for a week. That’s what the doctor telling me….

Whaaatt??? That means i missed the race in Sentul and 2 CBR CLUB’s gatherings already!! Sick is suck!! Yeah godamn right.

And now my big projection TV is broken… well that was since last month. Bugger….bugger…!! No cash to repair it….yet…

Get back to suck weather… it’s hurricane time now…! Sometimes wind blows very strong and the weathermen said there were some thypoon or something going on in Java island (including Jakarta that is!).

2 days ago, a woman got killed becoz a big tree tumbled on her head. Ouch…

The subject is not related to my bike’s color (or isn’t it?)

Hahaha…. it’s the weather… here in Jakarta… pretty bloody hot!! Yeah… i believe it’s almost 40 C….

In the beginning…(i recall the Coca Cola Convoy)… we’re so happy of this clear…blue sky…. with just a few clouds decorating those blue. Afterwards, it’s just annoying to go out under burning sun.

They said it’s because of the El Nino (little one…or Little Nino…hehe) somewhere at Asia Pacific ocean and Eddy’s wave at China Sea. I’m just worrying about heavy rains after this bloody extended hot summer days…

Jakarta & Flood…. very very KLOP!!

What a (hot) day….

It’s been a busy week…. hell yeah..

Last week, I and 46 peeps of CBR CLUB went out convoy for Coca Cola PositiFiesta campaign. It’s been frustating just to make sure all the 50 peeps come up on that Sunday. Even though, there were 3 guys missed the event, it’s all good

In the evening, I took my wife & kids out for dinner at Taman Anggrek Mall. We try the new sushi resto, Hachi-Hachi Bistro. The food are great, especially those fushion rolls. Buy hey…there’s never been a perfect one. We ordered 2 nigiris for Leticia (sake/salmon & tako)… and guess what? Bollock! Leticia didn’t even eat tako! FYI: tako is her fave!! Not fresh? Well you tell me!

Heineken is start with their UEFA’07 campaign….and Imlek too… busy busy days at work…

Just last night, when I took out my missus to Puri + Matthew, just to bring my home comp & an office comp for service (and having a lite dinner… yummy sop ikan batam:) ), I had a call from my auntie telling my one of my uncle (mom’s younger brother) has died today (afternoon?). It’s just shocking….! Well… as far as i know, he’s still at young age (middle age anyway/under 50) and doesn’t have any disease or else. She said, they’re having a mourn at Jelambar.

So there we are, me & missus going to the mourn at 23pm. Sleepy eyes……. We met my uncle’s wife & 2 kids, 3 other uncles, and lots of my counsins! Hey… is it always be a family gathering when someone dies? And it’s kinda strange cos my mom didn’t showup. It’s her brother… but my mom is always sick nowdays…

Anyway…my uncle’s death is definetely effecting me & my missus. Makes us thinking…. a long think…. why there are lots of people die recently. Not talking about 2 big disasters at the early 2007 (drowned ship & missing adam air), but some relates… dead… and forgotten. What a life circle….

Story of : sadness, loneliness, sickness, depression, left-behind, ignored, untrustfull…. i’ve been through all…. but not in the same time. Can i survive? Not sure…

I’m tired now… back from the office at 9pm….hot bath…matt is sleeping already….lisya & missus watching "Wulan"….dinner…today’s rantangan wasn’t bad at all…. and i’m here writting this all down…. 11.48pm.. bye now… missus is waiting upstair

Wiiih… ternyata udah lama juga gw nggak nge’blog. Terkadang males juga sie… tapi di tahun 2007 besok, gw pengen lebih banyak nulis disini…. yah at least buat reminder apa aja yg udah gw buat selama ini. Maybe it’s just so called a diary…

The club…

Even though there were "kasus petisi" which been made by a few members (5 ppl exactly; 4 of them are newbies), the CBR CLUB is still going strong, even stronger than before.

Tour in Bali (29 Nov-4 Dec) was the most successfull event in 2006. With 12 bikes sent by truck to Denpasar, we went around Bali to see those beautiful screneries and of course enjoying those smoooooth & well maintaned tarmacs ! Luckily there were Galungan ceremonies going on over the weekend. So there were not many traffics.

I’m very thankful to all the participants & sponsors. Especially to Sarlin (#11) who provides us a nice house in Jimbaran, 4 bungalows to spend a nite in Lovina/Singaraja and a car complete with a driver. Jesse (#22) for having a pick up car, Leo (#88) for tuning up all 12 bikes and help to get bikes up to truck until 3 o’clock in the morning, Probike for some cash to pay our meals and INK Helmets to provide us all free helmets !!!

I’m very happy to see & feel myself all the excitements and the brotherhood going on over there. All participants are very helpful and I sensed the great belonging to CBR CLUB. We also took alot (i mean A LOT!!) of pictures and videos. Oh, and i’m thankful to Handoko who compiled all those pics & vids.

Surely, I will never forget the memory of Bali !! One of the greatest event in my life too……

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My Fam…

It’s been stressing to get "visa to Bali" from my wife and my daughter too. Leticia was eager to come back to Bali when she went there on 2002.

Matthew was started hardly to walk before I go (to Bali), but he got much better when I’m back. Actually he runs !! Hehehe…

And now he’s able to running around with his sister. I just never imagine that my children can play together now. They look care and love to one another :)

Last week, we took out our old christmas tree from storage. Even though it’s base is damaged, we use a Heineken beer’s crate for it’s base. And it worked just sad that it doesn’t have (yet) those flashy lights Leticia was so happy putting all the decorations on the tree.

Anyway, we don’t have any plan for coming holiday season….. sigh…

My brand new blue Honda CBR150R 2006 is arrived at home at March 1, 2006!! This is my 2nd purchase of CBR150R. Previous one, 2003 Repsol was sold to a friend at the end of last January 2006.

The Baby Blue is already equipped with Yoshimura Gold Footpegs, Shindengen Racing CDI and pair of Bridgestone Battlax BT39ss.

Finally I chose a blue one……after struggling to choose between yellow or blue color for weeks!! Yellow is nice too…..but afterall blue suits to my 4 mo. son, Matthew. I love you boy……!

Anyway, future modifications will follow, such : Yoshimura exhaust, up side down fork, seat cowl and couple blue LED to give shines at nights.

Whew……it’s almost a week that I gave up my bike……

Still can’t believe it that I sold my awesome CBR150R…… anyway it’s for a good reason though.

This is a picture of my bike…..a week before I sold it.

Luckily I still have a chance to give it a go for the last time to Puncak last Sunday (22/1) with stock condition. It was a 1-day trip, with 28 CBRs……..fhew…my CBR still done the job so well after 2 years old……..

So what do you think the color for my next CBR?? Is it gonna be a yellow, blue or red?? Can’t decide it now……….still having that blue-orange scheme in my mind…..hmmmm….miss it so much..

Well………..Goodbye my love ……………….